A little smile and I start to fall
Try to catch myself
Because I've been here before
You tell me how beautiful I am
So I start to make
More of an effort
One date, that's all
Where's the danger to my heart in that?
I notice little differences
You're standing closer
You're more enthusiastic
Could it be you care more
Than those who came before
Even just a little bit?
Was that disappointment I saw
When you thought I might not ride with you?
Was it really about me going
Or did you just not want to be alone?
Truth is, I thought it was me
And I enjoyed the extra time
To talk, just the two of us
No one else to interject or interrupt
A little flirting over text
I start to wonder what's next
Things are kind of crazy
Both of us getting so busy
Between our jobs, school
Hobbies and passions
But we'll see if we can make
Something happen
Maybe it wasn't a lie
Maybe you only said yes
To be nice
I got what you thought I wanted
Any obligation to me fulfilled
Now I'm left here watching you
Watching her
Talking, laughing, joking
While I barely get
A look, if I'm lucky
I can't help but feel
A little used
A little hurt
A little tired of always
Staring at people's backs
As they walk away
Not knowing if I
Should chase or
Stay where I am
Because to me it's clear
You're not into me the way
I'm into you
You said I was beautiful
Am I just not pretty enough?
Did I not talk about myself enough?
Did I talk to much?
Am I bland, uninteresting?
Am I too weird?
Did I lack confidence?
Was I too forward?
Am I reading to much into this?
Am I giving you too much credit?
Is it worth it to keep trying?
Is it too early to give up?
The ball is in your court
But d you even see it?
Do you even want
To play this "game" with me?
Don't want to push too much
Don't want to give too little efort
But when is it too much?
When is it not enough?
You'd think I'd have a handle on this
Have some kind of answer
But the truth is
I've been Confident before
Only to find
What I had hoped was true
Was just the same lie
I keep telling myself
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